I have been so sick over the past 2 1/2 months that I have pretty much been confined to the comfort of my home. It is much better to throw up one's own toilet than someone elses, this is a fact I am quite sure of. I have realized I have let my passions fade, and this makes me sad. I have been passionate about many thing in my life, and I need to rekindle that. This ranges from the most important, my passion for Jesus, to the less important, creativity, reading, etc. I MISS so much. I MISS the relationship I had with the Lord, where every thought I had was a prayer. I was so intimate with my Savior, i could not finish my day without picking up my Bible and reading it. I remember when every page was alive, when I couldn't NOT be excited to hold it in my hand and think that He had something to tell me. I miss being a part of a worship team. When all that existed when I closed my eyes were voices I tried to blend mine with, and Jesus. That was it. Just trying to honor Him with my voice and seeking Him. I miss that. I miss the excitement. I am sad I have let that fade away, but I am so thankful because I know that I can get that back.
I hope I am nearing ending the sickness from this pregnancy so I can live again. So I can go outside and take a walk and smell the flowers, feel the warm sun on my skin. I look forward to spending much needed time with friends I haven't seen in weeks. I look forward to planning for this new life. I have so much ahead of me, and I feel I have a lot to do, I just need to do it. I need to move forward. I need to reach out and grab the things I have let drift away. I need to be passionate again, I yearn for that.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
gossip
Overhearing something, and then walking around blabbing it to others, whether true or not is gossip. Gossip hurts. The end.
Sorry, had to vent.
Sorry, had to vent.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Feeling
Like most people, when I first joined in the facebook craze, I added anyone and everyone I had ever laid eyes on as a friend. As I find myself more and more over the whole social networking thing, I delete friends, but there is one friend I cannot delete. I can't really say we ever spoke in high school. I can't say I really knew who I was adding when I added her. But I can say I will never remove her. I have not spoken a word to her since I added her, but I cannot help but think of her often. You see, this friend I have never spoken to (but shared a school with) is a widow. From what I gather from her words, she met and fell in love with a man, a man who happened to be a soldier. He went off to war, like he had before, but he did not come back alive. I am so very touched by this woman. Her love for her husband if so very strong, it has surpassed his death and prompted her to get involved in different widows' causes. I am astounded by her strength. Losing my husband is probably the greatest fear my heart contains. I cannot fathom it. It is a fear that has kept me awake at nights as I watch him sleep. It is a fear I always try to give to the Lord, trusting for His will, but a fear I think I will never let go of. It tears me up just to think about it. I see this woman, and her strength, her love for a man she can never hold again, never sleep next to again, and I am encouraged. I am encouraged that love can go beyond what our minds can think. I am encouraged that God can get us through any trial we are faced with, even the hardest thing we can imagine. And I am reminded to pray for this woman and all of the lives she has touched. Even in the smallest way, she has touched mine.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Flowers
So, my beautiful friend Kaytie is getting married tomorrow, and I was blessed to be able to help with the flowers for her wedding. I did all of the bridesmaids flowers. Hydranga's are fun to work with because they are so full! Here are some photos of the bouquets.
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